Já que a vida se encontra assim, melhor encarar...

 
Four months later...

Since june I don't even come here... and I don't think anyone else comes anyway. But it's been four months since the rollercoaster of my life had turned upside down. And now I'm back to old responsible Julie, back to non-single-anymore Julie. The thing is that I am living happy ever after with my love, I want my job to be permanent, I want it all to work out.

And I can't see how it cannot work out since I'm doing my best to be the best and unreplaceble (does this word exist??).
posted by Juju Guarany at 5:56 p.m.

 
Hi, baby!

I got your message, and I tried to call you back but you never answered the phone. Anyway, we haven't talked for a while, but that doesn't matter much. Time is so relative when it comes to you and me, heheh!

As soon as you can get a nice internet connection, then we talk. Or even call me, I'd love to talk to you!

Love you
posted by Juju Guarany at 7:59 p.m.

 
Bowling in Columbine
I remember going bowling for gym class at the High School. That was weird, because we didn't learn much. But it was fun, because we could get out of the school for a change. Do you remember that? I watched the Michael Moore's documentary today and that really touched me when it got to america way of life.

I don't think you've watched it, but you should. It's like the government's brainwash, but in the other way around. It's an american man criticizing the american culture. All the fear the media gets into the people keeping them in those bubbles you told me once. And all the free access everyone has to guns, even little kids at home. That made me think about what I've experienced of your culture. Leaving the good things aside, I'll talk about just the bad things for a change. One of the things I didn't like in america was the competition side. Everything in a challenge since the beggining. You always have the best and worst for everything, the "senior superlatives", for example. So in our lives, one of the goals is to get a medal for something. We want to be the best and be recognized as the best. I'm not saying that we all should be average, but americans learn very early that average is bad, when actually it's not bad, it's where most of us are, fortunately. That creates competition between the popular ones and the geek ones, the talented and the excluded, that's a culture of racism being raised.

I love bagels, I love peanut butter, I love all the sports at school and drama club, and I loved being part of this system for a while. But some things should change quickly, or we're gonna have more kids shooting at schools as we did in Columbine.
posted by Juju Guarany at 5:05 a.m.

 
I wanna do it!
Well, I decided that I wanna go. So now all I have to do is find out about study papers in here, so I can start planning! It's great that I can talk to you everytime I want now, we can get closer to each other.

I'm tired, and I just talked to you, but I wanted to post something here since I haven't done this for quite a while.

Love you
posted by Juju Guarany at 5:17 a.m.

 
I don't care if it's a fairytale...
All illusions seem to be bad for us. And sometimes reality seems to be just another illusion. I'm here right now, and again thinking of you coming to see me, and all the things I wanna show you, and all the fun we're gonna have together. And yes, I know you come and you go, ten days later, and our perfect fairytale is gonna be over, or at least interrupted for another two or more years.

The thing is that I don't care if that fairytale seems to be short and little. For us, is a part of our life that we really want to maintain. I challenge the whole world to set us apart. It's not gonna happen, no matter what. I don't care how long is gonna take for us to see each other again, we always can wait, we keep contact, we sure keep our crazy love untouched. I'm crazy about you, my precious friend. I'll be here if you come next week, or next month, or next year. I'll always be here for you, you know that.
posted by Juju Guarany at 4:08 a.m.

 
I just started a new vocal group last night!!!

Some of my cousin's friends and him were listening to Rockcapella, the same CD you showed me when we were going to Bettendorf. So they decided to join 12 young people and do rock and pop songs. My cousin Daniel thought of my name and my friend Camila, so we went there to meet the other members of the group. Everyone is so nice! And we did a little singing together and it was great!

I am sooooo excited about this!!!
posted by Juju Guarany at 2:50 a.m.

 
Suddenly everything looks so great!!!
Nothing happened, no news for me, I just feel happy and free!

Heart beats, that's all what matters...

I just read what you wrote for me in your blog and put on my main one, so I could share with all my friends how beautiful is this love we have.

One more time, you brought sunlight to my life.
Love you
posted by Juju Guarany at 5:29 p.m.